fish
2005-06-03, 3:41 p.m.
i'm obsessed with the fish. i love them. they're beautiful.
i feed them freeze dried shrimp and blood worms. put a little salt in their water, some conditioner. change 20% of the water twice a week.
their bowls sit on top of platforms that light up and change colors and rotate.
okay they're just fish, but i love spoiling them!
i'm reading "The Power of Now". it's sort of mind blowing. how often do you really think about what's going on in your life right this moment?
this book talks about the source of most people's depression coming from obsession with the past and future, and how often we become consumed with thoughts of these.
rationally we know that it's no use rehashing the past, looking back over it, having regrets. you can't change it. it's gone. it's over.
and we can't predict or control the future. we'd like to think that we can.
here's an exerpt.
"...unease, worry, anxiety, nervousness, tension, dread, phobia, and so on. This kind of psychological fear is always of something that MIGHT happen, not of something that is happening now. You are in the here and now, while your mind is in the future. This creates an anxiety gap. and if you are identified with your mind and have lost touch ith the power and simplicity of the Now, that anxiety gap will be your constant companion. You can always cope with the present moment, but you cannot cope with something that is only a mind projection - you cannot cope with the future."
"....Fear seems to have many causes. Fear of loss, fear of failure, fear of being hurt, and so on, but ultimately all fear is the ego's fear of death, of annihilation. to the ego, death is always just around the ocrner. Fear of death affects every aspct of your life...."
"....if you are wrong, your mind-based sense of self is seriously threatened with annihilation. So you as the ego cannot afford to be wrong. To be wrong is to die. Wars have been fought over this, and countless relationships have broken down."
i'm also attaching an e-copy of the book for you to read if you're interested.
have a great weekend!
YESTERDAY - TOMORROW
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