two days
2005-06-15, 3:43 p.m.
Wedding in two days. This will be my last entry until Monday.
I'm off from work Thursday and Friday, no internet from home. Sorry guys.
Funny, neither one of us is at all nervous. To us, it's just a party. The civil ceremony will be five minutes and we'll walk out married??? That's unbelievable. I'm sure it won't sink in until i officially change my name and get used to looking at the ring on my finger.
But i've been really uptight the past couple of days. Edgy. Irritated. I blame the heat, and the fact that I'm getting my period soon and feel like a beached whale!!! (Frankly I look like one too).
I was a week early last month and it has now ruined everything! I didn't want to have it for my wedding. So i'm ready to bite someone's head off.
I can't wait to stop taking the pill. Probably August.
So much to do and so little time and money as far as the afterparty goes. We have already spent $700 on food and drinks. And this is nothing compared to what couples usually shell out. Next year, when we get married in Greece, it will cost us thousands of dollars. And it will be mostly his friends and family, like 300 people!
Last night we spent all night cleaning and painting the apartment. Didn't stop until 10:30. Drank pina coladas and listened to the radio. Was exhausted and dirty come 10:30.
Then around 11, when we were both showered Adonis says to me with a sly smile, while laying naked on our sofa, "Want to jump?"
"No I don't want to jump," i snapped, no power left in me. "If you want sex, YOU jump."
You see what's going on? I never thought I'd hear those words come out of MY mouth. But I was EXHAUSTED.
The problem is he's prefers me on top, and I prefer it from the side. It's obvious why. Neither one of us wants to do all the work. I don't mind being on top, i love to give him pleasure, but I mean come on...you have to take turns when it comes to these things. AM I right or am I right?
In the beginning of the relationship, when we were doing it two three times a night, HE was like a killing machine. I had never experienced anything like it. Now he tires after three minutes.
What has happened to us? *sigh*
I guess it's the passage of time.
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My birthmother wrote me a lovely email this morning. She is coming, along with my nephew (Joseph) and her boyfriend....
Hi Rose
I loved your wedding invitations. We are planning on leaving as soon as we pick Joseph up in Tewksbury around 2:45 pm. We will stop somewhere on the way for supper, and I will call you on your cell phone when we are almost at your home. We are all looking forward to make your wedding a very special day for you both. I am so proud to have such a beautiful, and caring daughter, and I know your husband to be is a very lucky man to have you in his life also.
See you soon
Love,
Mom
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I am very lucky to have her, but I can't help but miss the fact that my adopted mother is not here for this, and my father could care less.
Will talk to you all real soon.
Be well,
Rose
YESTERDAY - TOMORROW
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