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home sweet home One of the things that my husband and I want more than anything in this life is to own our own home. Pride of ownership must be a good feeling. I know that times are tough right now for so many people who are struggling to keep their homes from foreclosure. It must be stressful. One must set their pride aside and humble oneself to the idea that until that damn mortgage is paid, the bank owns your ass. On one hand I'm grateful not to have the pressures of a mortgage, especially right now. If we had a house I would not have been able to stay home with my son. We could not have survived on my husband's paycheck alone. But still, it would be nice to come HOME to something that is yours. Not to have to deal with your neighbors who are to your right, left, above and below. To have the freedom to make whatever changes you want to the decor. For example, if my husband and I owned this apartment we would most definitely have done away with the god awful cabinet sink and gotten one of those sleek Pedestal sinks. Or replaced the scratched parquet floors with gorgeous hardwood. Maybe knock down a wall or two to open the space up a bit. But alas, we don't own this space. In fact we don't own much of anything. We have no equity. The most expensive thing we own is the Toshiba laptop I'm using to write this entry. My husband told me last night that if we owned our own home he would have wanted another child. Maybe even four! But it's hard to consider adding to the family when we're living in this one bedroom apartment. Sometimes I love to peruse the real estate sites. I found that the cost of a home just outside Chicago is within our budget. I was seriously considering Chicago, and my husband seemed open to it, until last winter hit and watched as Chicago got hit by numerous snow storms, and both admitted we weren't sure we could hack that kind of cold weather. But now I'm back on Chicago again. I'm thinking, what's a little snow. I'm thinkiing about how we didn't get much of any snow this past winter here in NYC and I was really disappointed because winter happens to be one of my favorite seasons. The snow gives you such a warm and cozy feeling. You just want to stay inside and snuggle up to your loved ones with a cup of cocoa and watch a movie. There's something magical about snow. I used to play in the snow for hours on end when I was a child. I'd love that for my son. For him to have a yard to play in. Maybe even a hill to sled down. But again I'm dreaming. And you know, I feel guilty dreaming about buying a house when thousands upon thousands of people in China just lost their homes, their loved ones, their children in a devastating earthquake. I should be blessed to have what we have. Just to know my family is all alive and healthy, this is the greatest blessing. So what if we live in a tiny one bedroom. As long as my son is loved, he will thrive.
chaos the javelina hunter - 2008-05-13 22:01:59 |
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